Day two of my second dosing of chemo and I feel like I have cactus needles in my hands, fingers (even under the tips of my fingernails). My mouth is tingling and numb all at the same time. I have the cold sensitivity even more now... Actually had to wrap a beverage in a napkin to carry it. I had forgotten about it when I drank from a water fountain and the water felt like shards of glass hitting my lips. I jumped back!
My leg muscles are very sore too. Walking up and down my stairs has been really hard because my calves are locking up. I also feel twitches in my legs but I'm thinking that's just the fat getting used up. Wishful thinking I know.
Tonight I stopped by one of my favorite places to eat & hang out to pick up dinner for The Rockstar and me. It was crowded because football was on the 11 screens in the bar. It was nice to see familiar faces and to be hugged and told I was in their prayers. I did see one of the patrons who had been diagnosed with kidney cancer about two years back. I don't know the whole story but he didn't look good. It looked like his cancer was back. He looks like a cancer patient. I don't. Still it gave me pause & even more resolve that I don't want to look like one either.
I'm drinking a ton of water but I need to drink more. These drugs & the tiny microscopic cancerous cells they are killing must be flushed from my system. The sooner they travel out of my body better I will feel.
I'm tired. Going to grab some sleep. Hoping it will also bring on some good healing.
Peace~ the moaning Philosopher
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